Indecision

Indecision is probably the one thing that plagues me most in life. I normally go through life avoiding big decisions and always following the crowd in one way or another. Because I know what happens if I am faced with a decision that I have to make, no matter how small. Even with a small decision, like where to sit at lunch or what to write about for a school project, I freeze up. I physically cannot choose anything because I suddenly don't want anything or know anything about what would be a better option. It is the worst thing, because then there are big decisions that only I can make- that I can't just ask someone to choose for me. I just get so overwhelmed with pressure. Now imagine a decision about something that you only get to do once. Holy shit that is a horrible experience. I literally break down because I just can't choose. I can't. Because what if I make the wrong choice? I get to do something once, and if I screw it up, I will never forget it and always be wishing I did something else. I CAN'T LIVE IN THAT MUCH REGRET! But, I also can't live in this amount of pressure. Indecision is the stupidest thing to be plagued by, but I can't find a way to fix it. I just hope I can help myself before I completely lose my mind over it.